There was a time when it was just a foregone conclusion that I'd be a professional writer of some sort. I was always writing something – newspaper articles, wild satires, the kind of feverish nonsense you can only think of when you're 17, 18, 19. I went to school for it, shaped it, got pretty good at it. I wrote straight news, humor and satire, and even started to work on that novel we all start to work on. I took a couple of semesters of creative writing from a commercially successful writer. I started to think of myself more in terms of story-telling than news reporting.
That old quote: "All you do is sit down at a typewriter and open a vein." So true. The best thing I ever wrote, the piece that actually took people's breath away when it was read, was basically just a recitation from a low, low point in a relationship. The people who read it were stunned by it, and the person it was about was not, it would be fair to say, pleased. And when I saw the reaction I got by opening that vein, compared to the reaction to other things I wrote where the vein wasn't even nicked, I realized that in order to be a good writer, I'd have to be willing to tell horrible truths about myself and, more importantly, people I loved. I'd be hurting people, most likely. It wasn't for me. I picked another path.
But I still have this urge to create. I write quick little history articles. And I tweet dumb things. This week I tweeted a dumb thing that reminded me how much I don't have the cruelty it would take to be a writer.
The Grammy Awards were this week. I care about them not one whit (except when it's convenient to do so, such as when they recognize the Albany Symphony Orchestra's recording at Troy Savings Bank Music Hall for best classical instrumental solo). But millions of people apparently do, and millions of them care who is the Best New Artist, to judge by social media. I've already forgotten who won this past week, but I thought I'd poke a little fun with a dumb tweet:
It was just a gentle swipe at the unimportance of the award as a harbinger of talent or a lasting career in the music business. It was a joke. My followers are few, no hashtags were harmed, etc. On to the next dumb tweet.
Except this is the age of teh interbutz, as the kids say, and so a few minutes later, I'm tweeted this:
The Swingle Singers, 1964 Grammy Best New Artist winners (for an unlikely choral arrangement of Bach) tweeted me a winking emoji. The Swingle Singers, who at the time I was four years old were competing in a music industry that did not quite yet include The Beatles, and winning international recognition, tweeted me a wink.
I didn't mean to insult them. Hopefully the wink means they weren't insulted. I tweeted back "See! You're still going strong!" which meant absolutely nothing. They're not even the original members, and I was still concerned that I had somehow hurt the feelings of a group of people whose name I hadn't thought about since the Johnson Administration.
So if that's how I feel about a choral group, what are the chances I could really write about family, friends, people I've known? Their stories are fascinating, sometimes heart-wrenching, but I don't have the heart to tell them.
You know what's weird? I don't think I care what either The Starland Vocal Band or A Taste of Honey thinks. But I'll keep my semi-snarky tweets to myself for a while.